thank you so much for the advice, it really means a lot to me! but yeah, i’m definitely trying to just do what i want regardless of what people may think/say. it’s going to be challenge because i tend to put everyone else before myself and it’s a hard habit to change. it’s always nice to know that there are people who have been through the same thing and have gotten past it because it gives me hope that i can do the same :)
on a brighter side of things: things have gotten a little better since yesterday, so i’ve got my fingers crossed that my parents won’t find something else in my life to nitpick at!
so I turn to you tumblr. Yes, I do have friends that I can vent to, but I rarely do because I always feel like my problems are just a nuisance to them (although they tell me otherwise but still).
I hate you. Okay, maybe not hate, more like I’m really annoyed at you. Don’t get me wrong, I like coming home and seeing my family and spending time with them, but then there are times when I’m just so fed up with everything. I don’t think there has been one day since I’ve been back where I didn’t get yelled at for something.
For instance, I just got yelled at because apparently it was my fault that my brother dropped a bag of bricks on his toe. Yeah. Because apparently I put too many bricks in the bag… okay sure. He could have taken them out. My mom’s response? “Well, it’s because you stacked them so prettily your brother didn’t want to take them back out.”
Huh? In what world does that make sense? I’m just so fed up with taking the blame for pretty much everything.
Oh, and I told my dad I got a B in my psych class and I already beat myself up over that grade (I’ve bitched about it to enough people already, which I apologize for) and my dad bitches at me for it. Yay, as if I don’t give myself enough shit for it.
since last summer