May 2011
74 posts
i feel like i was reading something in my head because i totally know how you feel about your post "i need an outlet".
but, i will pass along something someone told me since i met them--just be yourself. don't be bogged down by what other people think or say about you. they don't matter. yes, they might have a say in it (like your family), but it ultimately comes down to you.
if that means throwing old clothes in plastic bags and just plopping them in front of your mom, then do it. as far as grades are concerned, you did the best you can do. you can't really go back and change things, so don't regret anything.
even though i just know you through tumblr, i can tell you're an amazing person. "do you" is all i can say. if people don't like what they hear or see, then that's their loss; they are missing out on meeting an awesome person. it's your life, not theirs so do what makes you happy. it makes each day more bearable when you are not putting up a front for anyone.
PS: sorry if this is really long. i have been there and i know it sucks. so this was my attempt to help :D
thank you so much for the advice, it really means a lot to me! but yeah, i’m definitely trying to just do what i want regardless of what people may think/say. it’s going to be challenge because i tend to put everyone else before myself and it’s a hard habit to change. it’s always nice to know that there are people who have been through the same thing and have gotten past it because it gives me hope that i can do the same :)
on a brighter side of things: things have gotten a little better since yesterday, so i’ve got my fingers crossed that my parents won’t find something else in my life to nitpick at!
For guys, it's "bros over hoes". For girls, it's "chicks over dicks". For me, it's "whoever the fuck has my back, over them fake ass bitches, anyday".
I need an outlet
so I turn to you tumblr. Yes, I do have friends that I can vent to, but I rarely do because I always feel like my problems are just a nuisance to them (although they tell me otherwise but still).
hi home.
I hate you. Okay, maybe not hate, more like I’m really annoyed at you. Don’t get me wrong, I like coming home and seeing my family and spending time with them, but then there are times when I’m just so fed up with everything. I don’t think there has been one day since I’ve been back where I didn’t get yelled at for something.
For instance, I just got yelled at because apparently it was my fault that my brother dropped a bag of bricks on his toe. Yeah. Because apparently I put too many bricks in the bag… okay sure. He could have taken them out. My mom’s response? “Well, it’s because you stacked them so prettily your brother didn’t want to take them back out.”
Huh? In what world does that make sense? I’m just so fed up with taking the blame for pretty much everything.
Sigh.
Oh, and I told my dad I got a B in my psych class and I already beat myself up over that grade (I’ve bitched about it to enough people already, which I apologize for) and my dad bitches at me for it. Yay, as if I don’t give myself enough shit for it.
when did you have a tumblr?..........
since last summer
